lolol it's almost 4 am

Anyways, I haven't seen big girl for a while and I think I've gotten her off of my heart's mind.

But check this out....I was browsing the internet a few days ago, and I met a girl that's almost the perfect copy of the big tittied girl from ghost world.

She's short, stocky, she has short black hair, humongous boobs, cute eyes, she stands weird and probably walks weird too, she's pale.

Did I mention she's smart and funny (sorry, I'm a guy after all...these things come last... :P).

In short, she's the tastiest thing I've ever set eyes on, but .... she's on the internet, like 2000 miles away ?

Like... whatever.

Ghost World

I just watched that movie. Now I'm regretting it.

I wanted to watch it coz I kinda liked the chick with black hair and big tits.

That was the most depressing movie I've ever watched.

Holy fuck.

I feel lonely.

Then again, aren't we all ?

Aren't we all ... lonely ?

Ripping my heart out

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I'm sleeping early today... not sure why.

Tomorrow is gonna be another college day, I don't know what I want to happen.

I do know what to expect, a long boring day full of noisy people. I just want it different than every other day.

I probably won't even see her.



I need a pepsi?

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Ok, so

I thought I was done falling in love and all that shit. I ridiculed love as much as I could just to keep it away from me. I changed the way I think into ignoring anything about a girl except for her body.

Now it's all over, all my efforts to stop being a pussy are gone with the wind.

So I saw her a few weeks in my first semester. She has curly hair, and sleek silver glasses, she reminds me of a swimmer, I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because she's tall, maybe it's because her shoulders are wide. I don't know why but I'm sure she likes swimming.

Now it's week four of second semester, I hadn't been thinking about her or any other girl since I came to this college. I've been using them to be frank, considering them walking boobs. It's more fun that way.

Why did she have to stand next to me ?
And why did she have to be so happy ?

Why didn't she do something disgusting ?
Maybe I wouldn't have her on my mind now.

Back to grade five it is for me, I'm a little boy again, I'm gonna break my heart again, I'm gonna live with the pain, so I'd better get ready for it.

I'm 18 and I have a crush, haha, she's 2 years older and 2 inches taller than me, probably a lot stronger too. God help me. God help us all.

Fuck she's so pretty.
Pretty and tall ?